WTF?!?! OMG!!!!

So.....I was chatting with a friend I made last year *ahem* summer of 2007, sorry. And I was reminded of how happy and giddy I felt when I was near him and talking with him, etc, etc, etc. (See the first post, I believe, in this series.) And as we were saying good night (yes, we were chatting just after ringing in 2009) I realized that when I met him, he was 20!!! And then, I saw his status: "in a relationship." Seriously? You would do that to me, God? Knowing that I'm all about the internal aspect of a person and putting age aside, you would show me his status as I start wondering the "what if's" again. Seriously. And I'm all flirty in the chat and such and then gotta reel it in big time and change course before he gets freaked out. Why, when I decide it may not be a bad thing to be in a relationship and am trying to determine if there is meaning behind the sudden interests from 2 very cool, intelligent, good looking men who actually attend church - and my church to boot! - when Mr. I Would See Dead People With You comes back into my life with an unexplained phone call to see if I'll be at camp with him and others and then there he is on my Facebook saying how they all missed me and....I had a point when I started this thing, I know I did....or maybe my point was just that I am a big ol' ball of confusion. So what else is new?